Maybe I feel like my previous job won’t let go of me, but maybe for some partial truth, I didn’t want to let go of it. Despite the emotional backlogs, deep down I knew I’m ready for a transition.
There were always feelings of uncertainty, doubts and fears that taking a Gap Year might not be the best for me. But isn’t it natural for humans to feel this way when faced with uncomfortable situations or in making decisions that are totally new to us? Nobody likes to be in an uncomfortable situation – especially one that leads to growth.
But growth is rarely straight forward.
There were moments in the day during my transition where I had to take a deep breath in and exhale the excess. “Let go of the day, the last moment, the last hour, the last minute. You’re here. You’ve chosen to be here. And Allah has planned for you to be here. So relax and give yourself this moment.”
Come to think about it, without these feelings of uncertainty, doubts and fears, we won’t have the inertia or faith to push ourselves beyond what we are capable of in life. When we are comfortable, we remain stagnant and we don’t push ourselves as often as we should. It’s only when we feel these feelings of uncertainty, doubts and fears, will we start questioning ourselves on why do we feel this way and eventually discover what truly matters to us in life. And that’s why they say growth is rarely straight forward.
Being in transition is a personal journey. I don’t need assurance from others to make me feel good or feel bad about the decision that I made. Of course it’s important to tell your loved ones about the transition because generally speaking they deserved to know why. But at the same time, it’s important to know why is the time taken for the transition important to you.
As the months pass by and I began to discover myself again and doing the things that make me happy, I began to let go and fully embraced the transition process. Along the way, it also made me more conscious that we are all living in a transition phase. We are living in this world temporarily. In that sense, we are in transit to our final destination – the Hereafter.
And transitions are never always seamless. Even airport transits makes us feel uncomfortable with some anxiety and fear that we could never make it in time to catch that next plane. Life is never different from that.
One thing that I learnt throughout this transition process is to never settle for comfort. Transition is in our future. We are in constant transition and the only way to survive is to embrace the uncertainty and make sure we have our passport ready for the next flight out – wherever, whenever that will be.
Doesn’t it comfort you knowing that every transition in your life has already been planned by Allah even before you were born? And Allah will never let you miss the ‘transiting flights’ that he has put you on, no matter what the situation is, so that we can reach our destination – the Hereafter – safely.
So have faith and always be ready with your backpack filled with Deen and knowledge for that ‘transiting flights’ you are about to take on, for Allah will never leave His faithful servants behind.