This is how I finally found my purpose in life

24. It is the age where you are independently capable enough to purchase things on your own as compared to when you were 16 – when waiting for your birthday every year seems like a 10 year wait for your parents or loved ones to fulfil your never ending wish list. Now that I’m 24, I realised that I had everything that I have ever wanted and most importantly, I knew I had everything that I was suppose to have.

But there is no deny that at this time and age, we have also evolved into creatures of habit. We stocked up on things that we don’t really need. We buy another pair of shoes just because the other pair that we owned no longer seems fashionable or fit the current look that we’re going for. Overtime, we tend to buy things for the sake of buying – it becomes a habit that no longer creates a value to an individual.

I’ve always been the kind of girl that isn’t materialistic enough to appreciate an expensive handbag or needed the most expensive items from the product range. I am relatively simple in that materialistic sense. It was went my best friend shared with me a quote from Yasmin Mogahed’s book, Reclaim Your Heart that made me think twice about my materialistic position in life.

“I thought I’m never the materialistic person, because I’m never into branded bags, high salaries, expensive items. but I realised materialistic is not just about things…its about emotions, people…anything related to Dunia. And it was then I realised that I AM materialistic, I was too attached to people.”

This quote made me realise that the word materialistic meant more than what I thought it was. And that my friends, was the catalyst that made me embark on this journey of self-transformation particularly with regards to any forms of tangible and emotional attachment towards worldly affairs. For a start, my journey began with me deleting my 4 year old Instagram account (a huge emotional attachment for me) which you can read more about here.

From there, I moved on to address the most obvious tangible attachment in life – cleaning out my room of items and clothing that I barely used. For a start, I googled and began to get more interested about the whole ideology of being a minimalist. My search engine often includes phrases such as “How Do I be a Minimalist? Ways to declutter your room? What is minimalistic?”

I asked myself the following questions every time I hold an item in my hands while I was clearing out my room.

  1. Does it spark joy to me now?
  2. How long has this been in my wardrobe/cupboard?
  3. Do I even know when was the last time I wore this or use the item?

If the answer to any of the questions above are either a no or don’t know, it either goes into the donation box or into the recycling/throw away box. And with that, I managed to clean out my room within 2 days – talking about efficiency guys!

For a while, I’ve always thought that being a minimalist means owning lesser stuffs and in some sense, being a decluttering expert even when you have other professions in life. If I were to summarize it, it was all about stuffs – dealing more with the tangible objects in our life. But that was just the beginning.

Over the next few days after cleaning out my room, I became more conscious that being a minimalist is more than just decluttering what’s on your counter top. I realised as a Muslim and in the spiritual context, being a minimalist is also about purifying your heart into reconnecting back to the reasons you are living in this time and your purpose in life.

I soon began to search for new spiritual knowledge and who would have thought that even if I’m still now at the beginning stages of this continuous learning process, God has shown me the path that has led me in ultimately finding my purpose in life. And there it is. My Gap Year has just gotten more interesting because now with this new found purpose of life (which I’ve yet to share), I am setting out on a new venture to make a change in the community which I’ll probably get around to share over the next few posts.

Here’s a quote from a recent documentary that I’ve watched about minimalism (Minimalism: A Documentary About the Important Things) to summarize how I feel about being a minimalist.

 “The people you bring into your life – we should always be hanging out with people who have the same values and that is what really being a minimalist is all about. It’s about living deliberately. So every choice that I made, every relationship, every item, every dollar that I spent – I’m not perfect obviously – but I do constantly ask the question, “Is this adding value? Am I being deliberate with this decision?” – Josh

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For a start..

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This is it – I finally did it. 

The past few weeks have been filled with graceful conversations and learning lessons with people that truly matters to me. As we progress into becoming the better version of ourselves, we became more conscious and realise that living as a human in this time is in fact the most challenging tribulation of our time.

We are surrounded by many distractions that concluded its path in leading us astray from our true purpose of living – which is to serve God and prepare for the Hereafter.

Making sins (especially unintentional sins) are more prevalent and easier in this time. A time where social media may lead you to be more subconsciously arrogant in portraying about your life to others. A time where our niat (intentions) in doing certain things is no longer sincere and is no longer because of God but is to please others. A time where you no longer realise that fighting the Dajjal within us is more difficult than waiting for the physical Dajjal to arrive – a sign of the End of Time.

Lately, I’ve had numerous discussions with a group of friends about truly being more present within ourselves and in the eyes of God, and here’s something that lingers to me for a long while. My best friend shared this excerpt that she read from Yasmin Mogahed’s book, Reclaim your heart.

“I thought I’m never the materialistic person, because I’m never into branded bags, high salaries, expensive items. but I realised materialistic is not just about things…its about emotions, people…anything related to Dunia. And it was then I realised that I AM materialistic, I was too attached to people.”

For that very reason, I felt a deep sense of urgency and importance to identify the materialistic attachment I had towards certain emotions and addictions, and to eliminate them from my life right now. And the first culprit on my list was my Instagram account.

Instagram is no doubt a great tool to be connected, get inspired and reach out to a wide range of audience. And as a visual person, Instagram was a sentimental medium for me to share my love of capturing moments through photographs and at the same time get inspired artistically in that area.

But Instagram was also the reason  I can find myself either consciously or subconsciously comparing my life to others, spending undocumented time scrolling through the feed, sharing things for other unintentional reasons and not for the sake of God, and also the reason where my niat is constantly tested whenever a new post is up.

And lately, I felt that our society and even myself at times have lost touch in connecting sincerely as a human. We are losing the element of being involved in each other’s life that we fabricate it with mediums like Instagram to portray the spirit of human connection but in reality, it doesn’t work.

To be honest, it was tough for me to delete my Instagram account as it was a medium that I actively documented my memorable life moments. But you know what, after scrolling through my Instagram feed of 4 years and making peace with the fact that I’m doing it for myself and for the sake of God, it wasn’t a tough decision after all.

This is all for a better and clutter free life, and until I find the real purpose and niat to create an account again, I will not have an Instagram account as of now.

Here is my journey to a minimalistic life. InshaAllah.

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