This is it – I finally did it.
The past few weeks have been filled with graceful conversations and learning lessons with people that truly matters to me. As we progress into becoming the better version of ourselves, we became more conscious and realise that living as a human in this time is in fact the most challenging tribulation of our time.
We are surrounded by many distractions that concluded its path in leading us astray from our true purpose of living – which is to serve God and prepare for the Hereafter.
Making sins (especially unintentional sins) are more prevalent and easier in this time. A time where social media may lead you to be more subconsciously arrogant in portraying about your life to others. A time where our niat (intentions) in doing certain things is no longer sincere and is no longer because of God but is to please others. A time where you no longer realise that fighting the Dajjal within us is more difficult than waiting for the physical Dajjal to arrive – a sign of the End of Time.
Lately, I’ve had numerous discussions with a group of friends about truly being more present within ourselves and in the eyes of God, and here’s something that lingers to me for a long while. My best friend shared this excerpt that she read from Yasmin Mogahed’s book, Reclaim your heart.
“I thought I’m never the materialistic person, because I’m never into branded bags, high salaries, expensive items. but I realised materialistic is not just about things…its about emotions, people…anything related to Dunia. And it was then I realised that I AM materialistic, I was too attached to people.”
For that very reason, I felt a deep sense of urgency and importance to identify the materialistic attachment I had towards certain emotions and addictions, and to eliminate them from my life right now. And the first culprit on my list was my Instagram account.
Instagram is no doubt a great tool to be connected, get inspired and reach out to a wide range of audience. And as a visual person, Instagram was a sentimental medium for me to share my love of capturing moments through photographs and at the same time get inspired artistically in that area.
But Instagram was also the reason I can find myself either consciously or subconsciously comparing my life to others, spending undocumented time scrolling through the feed, sharing things for other unintentional reasons and not for the sake of God, and also the reason where my niat is constantly tested whenever a new post is up.
And lately, I felt that our society and even myself at times have lost touch in connecting sincerely as a human. We are losing the element of being involved in each other’s life that we fabricate it with mediums like Instagram to portray the spirit of human connection but in reality, it doesn’t work.
To be honest, it was tough for me to delete my Instagram account as it was a medium that I actively documented my memorable life moments. But you know what, after scrolling through my Instagram feed of 4 years and making peace with the fact that I’m doing it for myself and for the sake of God, it wasn’t a tough decision after all.
This is all for a better and clutter free life, and until I find the real purpose and niat to create an account again, I will not have an Instagram account as of now.
Here is my journey to a minimalistic life. InshaAllah.